The prompt/question this week is do I keep a journal or diary.
Duh!!! Of course I do. I’ve been a life-long diarist since I was given my first “big girl” diary at the age of 8.
It was a 3×5 sized, hardbound book, complete with it’s own lock and key, hundreds of sheets of lined paper, and Barbie pink, my signature color. I kept the key on a ribbon that perpetually hung from neck. I wasn’t going to let anyone get a hold of that key and find out all my deepest, darkest, secrets, my newest boy crush, or my thoughts about myself.
I got to the last page by my tenth birthday. At that birthday, I received a new one – a little bigger at 4×6, but still pink, keyed, and the paper was lined.
I filled that one up by before birthday # 12.
I was a very diligent writer back then. I sat down on my bed most nights and just wrote. Anything. Stuff about how my day had gone, what teacher had reamed me for talking in class – this was a common occurrence and all my report cards back then had one common theme “Margaret-Mary needs to learn to sit quietly when she is done with her work, and not visit with the other children. She tends to be done faster than everyone else and has a tendency to disrupt the others who are still working.”
I would write about tv shows and the latest plotlines for my favs like Hawaii 5-0 ( the original one), The Brady Bunch ( hated Marcia AND Jan), Love American Style ( I learned everything I ever needed to know about sex with that show!).
I’d write about new books I’d read. Nancy Drew, Trixie Beldon and Agatha Christie were my absolute favorites.
I wrote a lot about what I was feeling at the time. My preteen, then Tween, then full teen angst was real, bold, and vibrantly displayed in the pages of my Barbie pink journal. Inadequacies about my body, my personality, my basic worth, were all tortuously categorized and detailed in vivid, descriptive words.
By the time I was in college, I was still writing down my thoughts and using a journal for an emotional outlet, a friend, and a confidant. The fact that the pages never offered advice, censure, or any kind of validation to my thoughts, didn’t seem to matter at the time.
Fast forward a few years and I got married, then pregnant. While I was waiting for my daughter to be cooked, I started a new journal just for her. It detailed all her vitals and personal stuff, how she was doing in utero – how I was, too. We didn’t know the sex and kept it unknown until she popped out. From day one of her actual life on earth, I started a new journal for her, again detailing all the events in her life, the milestones, my hopes and dreams for her.
I stopped keeping a diary for her when she started doing her own journaling at 7 years old.
What’s that dopey expression about apples and trees? Black pots and kettles?
Let’s see what the other authors in the hop think about diaries, journals, and writing all your thoughts down for prosperity.
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3 responses to “On why I write it all down….”
Funny I never journaled, still don’t. I guess my focus was on writing stories. My characters always had a much more interesting world than I did. LOL
Thank you for not making me the only one who does this:) When my daughter was expecting, I started a blog for my new grandchild, and when she’s old enough, I’ll give her the password and log in info. It’s filled with loving letters to her about her milestones, funny things she’s done, and her accomplishments.
I cannot remember any teacher ever assigning students the task of keeping a journal, although I once had a therapist who suggested that to me as a way to work through inner conflict.