Tomorrow, Skater’s Waltz is released into the world. Last week I admitted how fretful – well, terrified really – I am about this for a number of reasons. I’ve had a few days to sit back and, while biting my nails, reflect on this. So here goes.
I am a truly private person. I know that sounds ridiculous since I have this blog, Facebook account, Twitter handle, am a Pinterest follower, am LinkedIn, and Google plus-ed, but it’s true. As much as is “out there” in the cyber-verse about me, I keep a great deal of my emotions, thoughts ( yes, believe it!), and musings locked in my head. So when I tell you I’m terrified of this book failing, it is a huge admission for me to give a voice to.
I fail all the time. It’s true. I fail at weight loss, I fail to keep up with my exercise regimen, I fail people…enough about that one. So, you can see, failure is familiar to me and I usually don’t dwell on it, just get back on my proverbial horse and push on.
But this… this is soooooo different in every aspect. This book represents everything about me. My hopes, my dreams, my thoughts, my words, my loves. To have it fail – and by fail I mean, no one likes it, derides it, and makes fun of it – would, quite simply, be devastating.
I know I shouldn’t dwell on failure, because it can be a self fulfilling prophecy. Obviously, someone liked it because it’s being published. So there’s that. People will say “don’t worry about it. Everything will be fine.” And that’s nice to hear. But it’s so easy for someone else to say. Unless you have been in this position, as any writer has, it is impossible to empathize with what this feels like in your heart, soul and mind. As a writer, you put yourself out there on a ledge by asking people to read what you have to say. You love what you’ve written. It represents something that came from deep inside you, something that you gave your all to in order to bring forth. Discovering that people don’t like it, or worse – think it’s silly or stupid, or (the ultimate worst) badly written, is heartstoppingly traumatizing. I can hear how dramatic this sounds but believe me, from a writer’s viewpoint, it’s true.
As for the rest, I guess tomorrow will tell. I’ve done everything I could to promote it, market it, spread the word, and try to drum up some excitement from the people I know. I guess, as always, time will tell.
For now though, I’m going to go have a cookie…or several. And then try to exercise.
4 responses to “Release-Eve thoughts….”
As a writer, I totally understand, Peggy. Both my books have rocked the top 100 bestseller in Time-Travel Romance and Scottish Historical, but I still have those fears. However, remember this is your baby and you loved it first. Go forth with cookies in hand and take a walk. 🙂 I’ll help you promote, too. Sounds like a great read!
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Mary – you’re a doll and your words are truly appreciated. The cookies are gone but my hope is not!
thanks for the love…
My dear Peggy, I pray that this a huge success for you.Stop all that what if kind of thinking.I want you to say this out loud as you read this.My book is going to be extremely successful. There now it’s out there in the universe, it it will be. Love ya.
Jean – I miss you!!!!! Thanks for the kind words. I need them :>) PS. I understand someone special is coming to visit you this weekend. SHe brings good tidings from me!!