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Reading

“The first time I read a new book, it is to me just as if I had gained a new friend; when I read over a book I have perused before it resembles the meeting with an old friend.” Oliver Goldsmith 

This quote resonates with me because I have been known to read and re-read books, sometimes yearly. I’ve read Gone with the Wind once ever year since I was in college. I read every Nora Roberts book when it is first released and then when it is re-released. The joy I experience when I read The End in a book, is only surmounted by the joy I feel when I start a favored book again. It doesn’t matter that I know the outcome. What matters is that the story being read is a good one. And, like  Goldsmith alludes to in his quote, the meeting of the words again is like meeting up with an old and treasured friend.

Why do I write? I’ve explored this topic before, but today I can answer it in a little more depth by asking, “Why do I read?”

Why do we read? What compels us, as a civilized people, to record our words? Many reasons come to my mind, not the least of which is to be entertained. I enjoy losing myself in a book, its characters, its plot lines and twists. A good story, like a good story teller, is a commodity. Anyone can write a book. All you need is a basic command of the language and a plot. But to write a good story, one that lasts, tests the passage of time, that entertains, educates, and makes one think, that takes talent. I read nowadays to be entertained. In college, I read to be educated. When I was in grade school, I read in order to learn how to read: what the definition of the words were, what the punctuation meant. As a baby I was read to in order to calm me down and prepare me for bed.

When we only had real bound books and paper products to read, such as newspapers and magazines, reading was something we usually did in the privacy of our homes or at school. The techno-age, which  may end up being the death of paper, has allowed our civilization the  freedom to read at any time, any where, and to read anything. Books, magazines, periodicals, blogs, diaries, history, spreadsheets, anything that can be printed that needs to be read can now be uploaded and stored on a myriad of personal devices. People now read while standing in line at the grocery market, waiting for trains and plains, even while walking down the street – which can prove hazardous! And we still read for all the same reasons: to be entertained, educated, informed, enlightened, stimulated, and calmed.

I have a Kindle, a Kindle app on my Ipad and a Kindle app on my phone so I am never without my current reading material. NEVER. I remember a time when I went on vacation and had to limit myself to one hardbound book so as not to take up too much of my suitcase room. Now, I take my Ipad and I have thousands of books at my fingertips any time I want.

So. Back to why I read. Basically, I like to lose myself in characters that bare no resemblance to me and into plots that I will never find myself  embroiled in. For a few stolen hours I like to imagine worlds where love does concur all, good always triumphs over evil, and greed is not good. So because those are the sorts of books I like to read, those are also the sorts of books I like to write.

There’s an old adage that states “Write what you know.” If I were the one penning that concept, I would say, “Read and write what you like.”

I do.  Do you?

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Self doubt

“Of all the liars in the world, sometimes the worst are your own fears.” Rudyard Kipling.

This is a beautiful quote. Really. Look at the way Kipling works the words. He takes something as fundamental, complex and intrinsic to all mankind as the emotion fear, and calls it, quite simply, a liar. A teller of an untruth. A false statement or thought.

Why does this quote resonate with my writing? Because I am loaded, chockfull, with fear about what I write. I never think : it is good enough, worthy to be read by others, humorous, sad, though provoking, etc. Simply, I am constantly afraid my writing is not up to par and, that has kept me from allowing others to read what I’ve written and stockpiled for decades. My fear renders me incapable of sharing or even discussing my work. Most of my friends and co-workers never knew I wrote for pleasure until last year and even then I was loathe to tell them I wrote romantic stories.

The fear of not being considered good enough can be traced way back to my childhood. Parental abandonment, overweight issues and family mental illness all helped shaped me into the fearful young adult I became. Don’t ever let anyone tell you the experiences of your childhood don’t lead to lasting traumas in adulthood. How we deal with those traumas, and hopefully move beyond them is key. My family life was a melodramatic gothic novel waiting to be published and I finally realized that in my thirties and was able to push through it to become the strong willed, confident ( most of the time) person I am today.

But the one thing I’ve always kept locked away was my desire to write and be published. The fear of showing what I wrote to professionals and then being judged and rejected was too much for me. I never considered they would actually like something I’d written, or see some kind of potential in it. No, I knew it wasn’t good enough,so I just saved it to the hard drive and that was it.

Until last year.

Last year I was finally able to reconcile my fear of public knowledge about my writing and began pursuing options. I joined a writing group, something that had terrified me for years. I knew they would be much more polished writers than I was, published and well known with large reader followings.  They would recognize me immediately as not worthy of being in the group. I had nothing to add to the discussions about publishing and writing. What I never imagined, though,was that they would be so warm and welcoming to a new member. That they would bestow wisdom and encouragement and support to someone nowhere near as far in a writing career as they were.  First lie proven untrue – you are worthy and welcome – first fear overcome.

Then I started entering contests. Because I never had to face the judges across a table or room, I thought that when their negative comments came about my work – and I knew they were going to be negative – I wouldn’t feel as upset as I would have if it were given to me in person. Second lie dispelled – you aren’t a good enough writer – I got a great deal of positive comments and even got asked for full manuscripts from some editors. Second fear overcome.

I started traveling to writing conferences and began to feel as if I really did belong to this elite, special group of people. Third fear gone.

Every day when I write something I still agonize about whether it is good enough to be viewed by other people. I don’t worry they will laugh at my work, or me, though anymore. I don’t dread the thought of negative comments if they are tempered with constructive criticism. And I have even begun to start answering the question, “What are you working on?” with some confidence in my voice.

So, back to the quote: read it again and determine if your fears – and the lies that they are made of – are worth dispelling. For me, they were.

Any thoughts?

 

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Motivation

The dictionary definition of motivation is the act or process of giving someone a reason for doing something (Merriam Webster).  Deb Dixon, in Goal, Motivation and Conflict, tells us “Motivation is the “why.” Why do characters want something? The motivation is what drives characters to achieve their goals.” She also tells us that motivation is both an internal and an external concept.

Your characters  must be motivated towards a goal. Otherwise, they will just be dancing around on the page, happy and carefree with no worries. How do you spell b-o-r-i-n-g? They need to be moving towards or working towards a goal and the reason for that goal is what is motivating them. I think this holds true in real life as well, not just simply in our fictional characters.

Some days, when the words are flowing through my mind faster than my typing fingers can keep up, I never question what motivates me to write. To me, writing is like breathing: I have to do it or I will surely die. My tag line for this blog is Writing is my oxygen. I mean that.

Then there are days where I can’t get my mind to tell my fingers what to type. My brain is clouded, cluttered, and non-cooperative. But even on those frustrating days when the words don’t come easily, I still never have to question my motivation to write. I just have to or I know I will die. Sounds melodramatic, doesn’t it? Yeah, that’s me:  Melodrama’s my middle name. You thought it was Mary, didn’t you? Na-uh! Margaret-Melodrama Jaeger.

If I were a character in a novel and Deb Dixon was analyzing my character motivation, it might go something like this: External motivation: needs to write in her blog everyday so she doesn’t die. Internal motivation: writing is the one thing that is mine and mine alone, that gives me unlimited pleasure, and makes me feel worthy of living. I need to write just like I need to breath.

I think I’ve got this one; no worries. Now, applying it my characters may be a tad more difficult. And it should be. Otherwise my characters will be – here’s that word again –  boring!

My quote from today is from ubersuccesful writer Barbara Kingsolver: “The very least you can do in your life is to figure out what you hope for. And the most you can do is to live inside that hope. Not admire it from a distance, but live right in it, under its roof.”

What I hope for is the ability and freedom to write until I take my last breath. Seems to me like my hope and my motivation are pretty much the same thing!

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Goals

Goal, Motivation and Conflict was an excellent workshop yesterday, courtesy of Deb Dixon. I highly encourage any one who writes anything to get her book and follow its guidelines. It has helped me tremendously with my own fiction writing.

Starting today, I’m doing something new. I’ve found some quotes I think are excellent for my life and am gong to try and relate them to writing. The first one is, not surprising, about goals.

A goal, properly set, is half way reached — Zig Ziglar

I’m a plotter.

When I start a new novel I plan the whole thing out, bullet point by bullet point. I now where I’m going, who I’m going with, and the stops and starts along the way. Only when I feel ready and solid with my plot, do I begin the actual writing work. This quote from businessman and motivational speaker Zig Ziglar is a truism for me. I actually feel like I’ve done all the hard work when the plotting is set. The typing and putting the words down on paper doesn’t seem so hard after that because I know my way. Of course, there will always be little detours, sub plots I didn’t think of at the time but now feel right, characters I want to add or remove. Those things are easy to accomplish. The hard part for me has routinely been the road map. But once that is done, like Ziglar, I feel more than halfway there to my goal of completion.

Any thoughts?

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Deb Dixon Conference

On this lovely day before Mother’s Day, I’m privileged to be attending the Deb Dixon  Book In A Day Conference in Nashua with my New Hampshire RWA chapter. This was the perfect Mother’s day present  I gave to myself. Deb Dixon has an amazing CV and her landmark instructional book, Goal, Motivation and Conflict, helped me plot my last two books. I was able to pen them so easily, I wished I had known about her book when I was a neophyte writer.

After attending two writing conferences in two weeks ( last week was the NECRWA conference in Boston), I am uberinspired with my writing. I’ve updated my goals and I’m going to be starting something new tomorrow. Each day that I can – and hopefully that will be everyday – I plan on putting a quote up on this blog and will try to relate it to my writing journey. I hope you will join me in this new endeavor.

For now, I’m off to learn from the master, Deb Dixon.

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Conference end

Days like today always remind me why I love being a writer and attending writing conferences. Shared experiences, instilled knowledge, networking. This is why you come to conferences and why you should.

Today’s schedule included a class on finding your voice as a writer and how to use humor in your writing. I’ve done a previous blog on finding your writer’s voice and this class reiterated to me why it’s so important to be true to yourself and your writing style. It is distinctly yours and the more your write, the better it gets.

For our luncheon speaker today we had Cara McKenna take us through her journey to published author and gave us some advice on how to navigate through the sometimes tortuous waters of the publishing industry. With some colorful phrases and through a few tears, she made every writer in the room feel as if their journey was a worthwhile endeavor.

I attended a very good workshop in  the afternoon by Megan Frampton titled, Angst and Affability: Using Jane Eyre and Pride and Prejudice to Craft New Adult and Contemporary Romance. She drew comparisons and contrasts between the older books and their contemporary usages and it was quite fascinating.

Oh, and I did my two pitches. And survived! Suffice it to say, I had a VERY GOOD outcome with them. More will follow  ( hopefully) on that in the future.

I encourage everyone who writes to attend a writing conference at least yearly. I go more often because I can and, let’s face it,  want to. Even if you learn one thing you never knew before about writing/publishing/editing, whatever, or meet one person who can help change your life, the expense is always worth it. I’m going home armed with a new energy and desire to write. I have new writing goals for myself and am determined to see them through.

One of the most important things I learned this weekend was to keep at it. Keep writing and reading what you love. Don’t be discouraged if it isn’t your time to be discovered – it will be one day! Just keep at it and keep loving it.

Good advice.

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Conference – again!

So,the first day of the NECRWA conference is done. What a day! So glad I came. Two perfect standouts for me today. One was the Angela James master class b4youhitsend. I learned more in two hours with her in this class then I did in four years of college english and writing courses. The second was the dinner’s key note speaker, Bella Andre. She detailed her remarkable journey to publication both traditionally and digitally, and she made us all remember “It’s all about the book,” and “keeping your promise to the reader.”

I consider myself an okay writer when it comes to the mechanics of the craft: punctuation, tense, word use, etc. I’m usually a pretty fair to good editor of my own work. But after hearing Angela James speak for two hours about how to make your manuscript as perfect as it can be, and all the mistakes she’s sees with submissions,  I will admit I am an absolute  novice when it comes to editing. Simple things, like knowing when to capitalize words or how to use adjectives and adverbs correctly, I thought were second nature to me. Noooooooo. Right after I publish this I am going straight back to my WIP (Work in progress) and use the handouts she gave the class to go over every line of my manuscript with a fine tooth  digital editing comb. The class was pared down from an 8 hour workshop to 2, and believe me, even in those two hours my head was spinning with knowledge. I fully intend to take the 8 hour course when it is given and will consider it some of the best money I’ve spent all year on my writing career.

Super Best-Selling novelist Bella Andre’s speech was an inspiration. I am significantly older than she is and just starting out on my writing/publishing journey, but she said so many wonderful things that just touched my writing heart, the most important of which is to always keep the promise you made to the reader. The book is the most important and vital thing – not checking your social media for sales numbers, or reviews. The book itself, the story. That’s what should be uppermost on the mind of the writer. I am going to print that out and keep it next to my laptop at home. Every time I write I will see those words and remember.

Day two promises to be another gem -even though I have my two pitches!! Oh well, what’s the worst that can happen?
Details to follow tomorrow.

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Conference – Part 2

So it’s the first day of the NECRWA conference in Burlington. After checking in I received my “goodie bag” complete with program, name lanyard and my scheduled editor appointments for tomorrow morning. I get to “pitch”  my newest work in an 8 minute diatribe to two powerful editors at two distinct publishing houses. How do you define nervous? I’ve done this before at other conferences and that feeling of nervous anticipation coupled with sweat-producing dread never seems to go away. I know I have nothing to be nervous about – after all, I talk for a  living. But I think it’s that little nugget of self doubt that always permeates my soul when I talk about the stuff I write. Will the person like it? WIll they understand the story line I’m talking about? WIll they think I’m a complete illiterate moron? Will I stutter, falter, spit?  And God forbid – will I forget the story line I am pitching? All  these things run through my mind when I think about the pitch.

I’m a confident woman. Really. I know myself and I know my stuff. I can articulate – most of the time – well. I write fairly well, or so I’ve been told. But when it comes to talking about my writing with a complete stranger – who, by the way,  may be  my ticket to publication – I turn into an inarticulate, thread of thought losing toddler. That’s just dumb!

I’m not going to think about it for now. For today I’m going to attend the meetings I’ve chosen, learn from the masters, and just relax and enjoy the moment. I’ll think about the pitch later…probably all night long…and I won’t sleep, and I’ll be bone tired tomorrow and then then  I really will forget the story line, or falter, or stutter, or spit.

Oh god! What have I gotten myself into?

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Conferences

In my professional life – the one that pays me a salary – I have to attend several educational conferences every year in order to keep my licensing credentials up to date. These conferences are usually long winded, many times boring, and often soul draining because of the tedium involved with the materials. This weekend, I get to attend a conference I am eagerly looking forward to with joy and anticipation. The NECRWA Let your Imagination Take Flight Conference in Boston. The featured speakers list is a who’s who of amazing romance writers, editors and agents,  including Judith Arnold,  Bella Andre and Angela James. I can’t wait to hear all their pearls of wisdom.

Let’s face it: conferences can be expensive and time consuming. Most are usually never near where you live, so there’s always travel time and gas money involved, or in some cases, plane fare. With the travel goes the obligatory hotel stay. I usually stay in the hotel where the conference is being held just because I’m lazy and don’t want to shuffle from one hotel to the other. Then you’ve got to include the cost of meals if the conference doesn’t provide them. Even with all that, I am still an eager and willing conference attendee because I always learn something and the chance to interact and network with others who love writing as much as I do is very rewarding. I’ve always thought that if I learn one new thing and make at least one new writing friend at a conference, then the expense was more than worth it. I’ve never been let down with this thinking.

So I’m off to the conference today and will be live tweeting @peggy_jaeger and blogging here about all the fabulousness and info that I’ll be collecting.

Next weekend it’s off to Nashua for the Deb Dixon Book In  A Day conference – another great experience in writing. Deb Dixon is a writer/speaker who wrote the quintessential instruction book Goal Motivation  and Conflict, a must have for any writer. More about that conference at a later date.

 

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The BUSINESS of living vs. The DESIRE to write.

I have a job that pays me a salary, affords me some health insurance, and gets me out of the house three days a week. This is the job the people in my social realm call “Peggy’s real job.”

I don’t refer to it that way. I call it “The place Peggy goes when she’s not writing.” My real job is the one that affords me the most enjoyment, the one I eagerly look forward to each day, and the one that occupies my mind during rest, sleep and all other periods in my day.

My real job is not a job at all, but a love; an avocation; a calling. For my real job I, simply, write.

I’ve loved turning words into sentences and then into stories on the page since I first knew how to spell. I was that kid everyone hated in school who actually liked writing THEME ESSAYS in class and usually broke the grading curve with my scores. All during my school career I dreamed of graduation and then being able to write all the time, every day,whenever and wherever I wanted.

Reality washed over me like an ice cold shower when I did graduate and was told to pursue a real career which would pay my way into the world, because no one was going to do it for me. Unfortunately, sitting in a garret, writing mystery novels was not to be that career.

At that time, anyway.

Being able to write fiction on a full time basis is a luxury when you are first starting out in a writing career. I didn’t know that when I was younger. If I had, I might have steered towards a more literary career pursuit, in publishing, agenting, or even editing, instead of nursing. If I had known that my desire to write would be interrupted numerous times during my adult years with marriage, motherhood, and the need for a consistant, dependable  salary, I would definitely have made different career choices when I was younger and more flexible. Let’s face it: when you’ve got a husband, a child, and a mortgage, not to mention a car, the need for groceries, and an occasional night out, starving in a garret penning the great american novel doesn’t look so easy to do. Writers need to live. They need to pay bills, put food on the table and provide for themselves and their families. I wish I could give every writer I know who is trying to make a name for themselves with their craft a fairy godmother who could provide for them. Centuries ago, writers, artists and musicians had Patrons, wealthy people who would pay the artists’s expenses so they could devote their time to their writing, art or music. This allowed the creative person ample time to simply create and not have to worry about mundane everyday living needs. Patrons of the Arts were usually nobleman or women who had a staked interest in the person using their creativity. I would have done very well during those times as a writer because I would have had no qualms about accepting help ( in the form of money) in order to afford me time to write.

Most of the people  I know personally who are writers, have another job – a paying job – as I do. One that takes care of the mortgage, the kid’s college tuition, groceries, health insurance and car payments. This is just a fact of their life as it is mine.  Some day, hopefully BEFORE offical retirement age, I will be able to forgo this necessary salary and be able to support myself and my family with the fruits ( read: money) of my writing endeavors.Until then I steal whatever time I can from things I should be doing – like laundry, vacuuming, grocery shopping and sometimes even cooking. I haven’t been to a mall in almost a year and my wardrobe is several seasons out of date.

I don’t care, though, because I’m writing.

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